November 11, 2011
~~Michelle, Above Rubies
I have had many, many moments of being brought low, and my sinful heart being revealed to me...just in the past week! Heck, who am I kidding? Just today! I struggle with having control over my emotions, and patience, when just life happens! I still have my own ideas of how our family should do things, adapting for our unique needs such as Mum's illness, homeschooling, etc. And I'm a control freak.
Suffice it to say, my family has low tolerance for all of my many issues--those above are just skimming the surface! I am grateful for their input, and for never, EVER, indulging my sinful heart...but sometimes I do think I will never "get over" these heart issues of mine! It is such a hard process, this refining the Lord works in my heart through this imperfect life, with all its interruptions, mess, conflicts, and even the pain.
My perfectionism seems to be at the root of all this--no? I'm seeming to wander around wondering why this one struggle has popped up--really like a persistent blemish--yet.again?!
BUT: I am daily reminded, through the words of Paul himself, my family...or the Holy Spirit's gentle whisper, that, He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6
And I am humbled by that amazing grace.