January 3, 2012
I know of many people who "do" resolutions at the start of the new year, while some still have "theme" words or phrases for the new year. I've been thinking often about both, but have recently decided on a theme for 2012.
Never one to condense--and one who absolutely stinks at it--I have a phrase for the year 2012: Be still and know that He is God. This phrase, paraphrased from Scripture, encompasses so much for me in my season of life right now. I've talked about it before...but as I've been thinking back to just the last half of 2011, I'm seeing patterns.
Patterns of getting caught up in the mysteries of life, making decisions...slipping and becoming like Martha who is so focused on "doing" she loses sight of Who she's doing it for...patterns also include God bringing my eyes back to Him, revealing His plan bit by bit, and receiving beautiful, gracious confirmation and peace about decisions and changes that I, at one point, questioned.
I will still have doubts--never in this life will I be perfect. I'll still fear; but I am confident that God will continue to repeatedly strengthen me, draw me ever nearer to Him, so I will not be moved about like the wind when hard times come. I love the verse pictured above; words cannot express how deeply I want to be closer to God. To grow in sharing my thoughts, my deepest heart wishes and hurts, with Him--every minute of every day.
I enter this new year grateful, also. The past 6 months have shown me, in more ways than one, how God can rearrange my plans, adjust my focus...all for my good, and His glory. I'm not saying it hasn't been hard...or how many times I fought it all...but I'm grateful for this time after graduation, with no school, no guy, work, family and church.
For this time that is to be me, and God.